The answer

Yesterday someone post a comment with a question that read like this, "And I keep wondering does it make her happy to be always sad?"

I got mad when I read it. I just couldn't avoid to feel whoever wrote it was arrogant. But now I'm not mad, and I'll just answer that: I'm not happy in my sadness. Do you think I'm happy? do you find joy in my countenance?

If you knew me so well, I guess you wouldn't be asking that.

So, no. I'm not happy in my sadness.

I won't tell you why I'm sad. I don't think you ought to know.